Apr 10, 2009

Dwindle

A large part of me does not want to write anymore.

My creative energy is being sapped into the page, into a blog, into a journal. For almost a week, now, empty things take my Soul rather than flesh, an ear, a ... Heart. My ... heart.

I feel the threads withering like the final embers of a fire

and it scares me--
what if they never return?

What if it--the Joy of Words, of writing, of responding and being responded to--never returns but is lost, or postponed, with the Silence of being


Alone?

The Blank page stares, 
unfriendly
like the ghost of an enemy;
like the indifference of a friend.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

These are the times when we look to mathematics for comfort. Because life is often like one big sine wave.

Paige said...

i started writing again partly because of your work. it's really striking, kell. miss you!

-paige