Ladies and Gentlemen, Friends, Family, Enemies and Loves:
I. Have. Begun. My. Personal. Statements.
And they are rocking my world.
I decided to first work on Seattle Pacific's, since it's a Christian University and they don't want to know why I want to go there; they want to know what's gotten me here, as it relates to my personal journey.
So I've got a paragraph down. *ahem*
By my junior year of college, if asked about my spiritual life I would have presented my dissertation beginning with a pretentious snort and ending with: "God's a malicious deity who got bored and created these humans who could choose to either worship him for eternity, or spend it burning with all the other individualists." No, I didn't grow up in a pagan household, nor did I go to a school-for-heathens--in fact, Westmont College prides itself in the presence of God on its campus. We all attended chapel three times a week, took the compulsory religious courses, and demonstrated our 'Christian fidelity' through enrollment in as many "Ministry Clubs" as possible.
ba ha. Anyway, a little later, after salvaging my dignity and explaining that this is a story of grace, I explain my initial motivation for picking up the pen:
Though I didn't have the nerve to doubt this obscure Listener/Diety/Other, I decided we--the Christian community--had gone severely wrong somewhere in our summation of Him. I didn't know how to pray anymore, so I began to write.
Even if I decide the page-and-a-half I have is not worthy of submission and do away with it, it's been an interesting experience, trying to trace my reasons for turning my back on, and then running full force towards, that Other against whom I held so many grudges, only to fall faceforward at His feet--not finding Him grinning "maliciously" as I had anticipated,
but gazing down in a sigh, from a face streaked with Tears.
2 comments:
I found your blog. Your sending me the link may have played a rather large part in this endeavor. Anyhow, your blog has inspired me to try my hand at ressurecting my own humble blog and to try and find my literary voice once again. It would be good practice, and having a friend on the journey certainly makes things easier. I marvel at your choice of words that you like to capitalize. In your titles, writing, pretty much everything. It's the type of thing that classes could analyze for days and you probably have simple reason for doing so. I don't know the reason, so I won't pretend that I do. My guess is that some of the words are for emphasis and sometimes you are bored. That's all. Peace and love.
JEFF!!!!!!!!!!
:)
Congratulations, you are the first person to post on my blog.
Considering you are the person who got me blogging in the first place--high school flashback? :)--it's fitting.
I miss you, Friend.
And your assessment of my serial capitalization may have underlying motivation,
...
or I may idolize Emily Dickinson.
*long exhale*
it's probably both.
my point: hi backatcha :)
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